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idk if i'll ever get out of the art block im in
one step forward a bajillion steps backwards
i love art, but it's started scaring me, making me feel like shit. but i also dont wanna give up, cause i did once in the past, and it wasn't my fault, but i still feel guilty for it.
i know i just gotta... do like i did back when i got back into art, and just not give a fuck about the result, just do whatever, enjoy the process. but idk i cant seem to slip back into that mind set.

and its hard to express how it feels, i have a lot of supportive ppl in my circle who'll tell me i just gotta keep drawing, and it's fine if it looks like shit and its just about having fun, and the thing is, i agree. but some days, sitting at my tablet makes me feel fucking sick.

idk. it sucks here. i fucking hate it. i compare my drawings obsessively and i keep feeling like im regressing. i know art progress is not linear etc etc. still cant help feeling shitty.

but its fine. imma keep doing art, i have art trades to do that im genuinely excited about, i have ocs i wanna draw, a comic i wanna do. a friend sent me a post about making comics, no matter if theyre good or bad, you just gotta. and thats true, i gotta.

so whatever we'll see ig

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